I hope it is the right thing to do. It probably is. But honestly, I don’t care anymore. So what if its right. That doesn’t help me feel better in any way. It doesn’t help me feel anything. Godliness. Righteousness. Looking at it from another perspective. What’s the point. It still hurts like mad. And it always will.

So what do I do from here? I can’t live like that everyday. I can’t… Please.. Someone help.. me? But who can? Who can void me of emotions. Who can twist my emotions from sorrows to joy at will. I can’t do that. I can’t do that.

I feel so lonely. Alone. Why do I feel this way. Am I screwed up? I probably am. Much more than anyone I’ve seen. Maybe because that’s all I see. All I can see now. All I will ever be able to see. So what, do I continue putting up a strong front? Probably. I can’t do anything else can I. Forget it, stop hurting. Harden yourself. Why must there always be a struggle. Why can’t we just be happy and perfect.

If anyone’s out there.. Please stop it all.. please..